Not that anyone cares, but I'm taking a hiatus from everything. I'm not working on anything. I'm not going to school or busy with a job. I just don't have it in me to care about anything anymore. It takes too much energy out of me to just keep living and I just don't give a shit about anything anymore. I'm in a weekly group therapy to make my mom happy, but I'm not especially confident in anything helping me, and even if it did help, why the fuck do I care? The things I treasured most were forcibly taken from me and I don't see a point in trying to make anything right or better anymore. I don't care about my art. I lost all of my close friends. The person I trusted most threw everything in my face and left. I don't know how I could ever let anyone into my heart again. How I could trust anyone anymore. I hate myself. I loathe myself. there's no point in caring about anything anymore.
So, not that anyone actually cares, but this is why I'm not doing anything.